In times like this I feel that being emotional or ‘EMO‘ is a good study to pick on. I mean, being emo has got it’s reason. Why? Well, based on my weird intuition, one person emo cause they dun like the way things are, that they use the energy gained from that frustration to vent out, or so called emo.
But please if you’re a guy and you EMO like crap, it make me wanna go take a scissors and cut off your test***** tadpole producer!!
Some emo because the just want to emo, which is weirder than normal. I guessed people has got time bomb or some kind pre-installed in their minds. Well, though some girls emo when they have reached their cycle, period, etc. Perfectly normal… but wait, isn’t there a solution?? What can one person do?? If you are going to be emo, basically it’s a waste of human energy, those emo are because of unsatisfactory towards something. Now, if you have time to be emo, why don’t have time to change the energy you used up to be emo into something else.
Hmm.. kinda confusing ehh… what I meant was, you know you’re gonna be a bit emotional but have you dared to try to be somewhat different on that rare occasion. Too bad, most people in the behavior study doesn’t like to change or try something else. So how to help.
Effect on ME
So if you’re emo and you’re talking to me with your emo state and start blaming anything on me. My only best bet is I rather talk to an ELMO than to a EMONIAN.
Likely Conversation
Daniel : Hi Elmo!!!
Elmo : *quietness*
Daniel : I love talking to you!
Elmo : *silence*
— Somewhere in the distance —
Mom : Hey you crazy or what, talking to a stuffed toy!!
*sweats*
Sigh. Feeling emo sucks. Whenever I’m emo, I’ll just grab my guitar and play. =)
I think people who PRETEND to be emo for the sake of grabbing attention is offensive to people who can’t help being emotional.
But sadly, so many people are pretending to be emo lately.
Terlalu free tapi tak mau makan mamee. -.-
I’m emo and proud… i guess i was named right… lillith is some evil night demon… by the way is “emoness” a word? my bffl (best friend 4 life) keeps sayin it cuz we’re both emo. i’ve tried several attempts but my dad found out & took me 2 a psychiatrist (lucky 4 me i brought my lucky knife & just cut myself up in the waiting room). Also plz stop stereotyping emo ppl cuz we’re emo 4 reasons. Personally im emo cuz, well, when i wuz 7 my mom died from breast cancer & by the time i wuz 8 i was a mix of goth & emo and wouldnt talk 2 any1 and got into the habit of cutting my wrists. I’m 15 now and i dont think i’ll b changing my ways anytime soon. Plz excuse me i gtg cut myself.
swt… next time i emo, u lari jauh jauh ya…. 😛
Sorry to those “emonian” friends that I have. You are not gonna like what I’m about to say but deep down, you know it’s true.
IMO, those emonians are EMO all the time just to gain attention. They know perfectly well that being emo doesn’t solve the problems. But why they do it? So ppl will pity them and start persuading them lo.. For once, be an adult please! If you have problems, share it with your friends and not whine about how “emo” you are in the public yah.. It’s irritating!
EMO won’t help solve problems… So why waste time emo-ing??? Peliklah…
SilverIsle,
Now that’s what I call improvising
Carmen,
good point you have there. There are also fake emonians (– Is this even a word??
Lilli,
Well, I can just say, you have the will to change it. If you think because of background, one can’t change, then I seriously dunno what else to say.
angeline,
I think I am immune to ur EMO liao hahaha! My solution is to put sand on you. wahahaha
SaeWei,
ya.. attention seeking. But too bad it really works.
Anna,
Ya lor.. might as well find time go karaoke and sing right? 😛
EMO EMo Emo emo… I don’t know what EMO is. :p
yes.. emo is just an excuse to seek for attention.
I believe if one is really emo that by that, one wont even come to shout out loud in public telling ppl that he/she is emo, but one would just do nothing, or just sleep.
That’s the way I calm down myself. :p
Jane,
At least you got a way to calm down yourself. 🙂
2 types of emo people… genuine emo… and attention seeking emo. Tough world… tough choices. Other people have to decide for themselves which emo it is. And sometimes we’re wrong and hurt someone who is already having a really bad emo day and we feed the attention seeking habits of those who pretend.
Really… the only way to tell is that a real emo person is seeking support and compassion and will take suggestions and advice… maybe they just need someone to talk to… just need to express and not repress (unhealthy ma). A fake emo person will complain and complain and complain and when people try to help they go all spastic on you about how nobody understands what they’re going through (like so drama!) and then they complain some more. Having said all that though, the truth is, pretend-emonians (is that even a word?!) have real/genuine emo moments too. Don’t just brush emo people off simply because you “don’t like emo”.
That’s how I see it anyway. Just my two cents.
Bell,
Good point you have there Bell. I didn’t really foresee and generalize them as one that needs attention and one which needs help. Thanks for the info.
Yes, in moments like these, I can start to learn more about human behavior 🙂
F.U., Daniel!!!
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Emo guys do not act like girls and if ur a chav (which u most probably r cause u always have problems with emos) Most emos i know hate chavs and want them all to die so keep ur ideas to urself!!!!!!!! I think u stink!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just remember that emos rule and there is nothing u can do to stop us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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My eyes are bleeding from the bad spelling in this article and in the replies…
Btw emo4life, ascii drawing is so 20’th century…
ping pong: why you so sad mr emo man?
mr emo man: i so sad my long, slithering, emotional black hair didnt flop over my face today.
ping pong: why you so sad yesterday?
mr emo man: my little sisters jeans didnt fit me, they too tight light a new born babys…..
ping pong: why you wearing eye make-up mr emo man?
mr emo man: my boyfriend call me dike, i tell him no more talking… he hit me..
ping pong: mr emo man, why your life so dim?
mr emo man: dim life like h2ohh, when you buy, it drip on you only it drip black coz we dont like clear colours, except when you have a boyfriend and he….
ping pong: no more mr emo man! you turn me off my din din’s tonight… i should put you in blue.
mrs emo man: i am confused, my outsides look like a man but i feel like a women when mr emo man is putting eye liner in my ass.
ping pong: you crazy emo man and she-bitch, i put you in orange.. go home now!
I HATE NON-EMO PEOPLE. THEY DONT UNDERSTAND ME. THEY ALL WALK AROUND WITH THEIR NEAT EYELINER AND BAGGY NON-SKINNY LEG JEANS AND PUFF DADDY JACKETS!
YOU SHOULD BE WEARING MANSON JACKETS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MANSON IS MY SAVIOUR;
I SHIT ON YOU NON EMO PEOPLE…
EMO HATAZZZZ ‘PLAYA PLAYA’
FCUK YOU ALL!!!!!!
I WILL CUT MY HAIR INTO YOUR DINNER AND MAKE YOUR POO HAIRY!!
PEACE OUT NIKKA’Z
EMOS ROCK
die mother fuckers, im a fat guy
when i am emo i draw
People that aren’t emo think we’re wierd or emotional. Don’t judge something that u don’t understand. The people that wrote this story, you should actually talk to an emo person before you write something like that. Emo is a way to express you’re self. Almost nobody understands emo. If you’re ashamed to be emo, don’t be. Don’t think about what other people think of you. Just be what you want to be.
I am not an emo and I hate anyone who is! Most boy emos are gay and that makes want to barf! Why would anyone want to be emo anyways? I mean that is sssssssooooooooooo pethitic that you act all depressed so you get attention from people. If you are emo I seriously suggest you see a therapist to help you with you stupid mental emo problems!! I am only 9 and I know what an emo is and that makes me upset because I always I have nightmares about emos killing stuff! I hope that all emos relize who friggen’ retared they are bcause that would make my life so much better! Die emos!!!!!!!!!!
personally, i think your all aloada twats who cant handle change, so piss off and go chav it up in a mini or something =]
you know what, I completely agree with you man. i’m like in highschool and most of my classmates are so into being emo and looking like one i wonder how they live. i can’t even imagine a world populated by a bunch of emos.Emo sucks hell yeah!!! Im glad to see people who hate emo.Emos are weak.Emos are posers.Emos are loser and most of all Emos are gay.
honestly ive dated alot of emos…n they seriously hav problems lyk u either love them 2 much or they think u dnt love dem @ all…seroius guys fix urselfs up…being EMO is sooooo not cool!
im girl and im emo and you guys that think emo sucks youre so stupid!!!
i”m a punk and i personally think that all this emo rubbish is just a load of imitators trying to get attention and imitate the real deal of us! If you want attention, why don’t you do something a bit more useful with yourselves and jump off the nearest high rise building? its really stupid how you go round going, “Oh man, I’m so depressed… Wanna die…Blah Blah Blah…” Then you go off and cut your wrists? if I wanted to die, I would just jump off a building because that would kill me when all this wrist cutting is just for attention because it makes no difference to your actual health. Basically, emo guys are probably gay and they want to act like girls, but look cool so they imitate us punks here in Camden. Emo girls you just make me sick with the whole “depression thing”. I mean, about one in ten of you are actuallly depressed.
you should all just go and have a bath
i don’t know why anyone would want to hurt themselves on purpose!!! so stupid if you really want to die that much then commit suicide!!!!!!!!!
being emo anit a bad thing or a good thing . im kinda punk-ish i know alot of emo people it dont matter what you are tbh. chavs will be chavs goth’s will be goths. and by the way not all emo’s hurt themselves twats . All im gonna now say is i do guess you all have your own opion. And yeahh you should talk to an emo before write that. Emo’s are emo’s for a reason you dont know whats going on in there life if you bothered to ask how an emo’s life is and what they’ve been though you would get why their emo so stop labling people.
And emo guys dont look like girls you lot are chavs ( except the emos ect.) emo’s rock.
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hello emo people…i’m from TURKEY… there are a lot of emo people in the Turkey.. But emo people [super,great..]
lately i don’t know why.they are very good people..cuz i’m emo..Bye..
HEy leave emo’s alone and guys can act like they want to! let me do a studie on u! u little GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK OFF BITCH!
We are not freaking soup cans. We don’t need to be labled. Like people said before, no one understands us.
Also, all that hip-hop, rap shit you all listen to, it can go fuck off. And you people dress like shit, too. I mean, who wears their fucking pants at their knees? I saw one kid at school, and his were at his knees. Maybe a little higher, and his shirt was so fucking long, it hid it.
FUCK OFF!
ok der iz fuckin nothin wrong wid bein emo u fuckin little cuntz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im emo loadz of ma friendz r emo n ma boyfriend iz emo!!!! so all u emo h8az can go shove a cock up ur arse!!!!!!!!! byee xxxxx
n anotha thin dat really annoyz me iz every1 thinkz dat bein emo iz just attention seekin but i ant!!!!! if we woz just doin it 4 attention we would just walk around showin off all our cutz wouldnt we!!!!!!!!!!! fake emo so yer but der just gay!!!lol but real emoz just hide der cutz datz wt i do anyway n i do see a psychiatrist wich iz annoyin coz every1 thinkz if u cut ur self ur sick or somink but im nt itz just da only way 2 get rid of ma stress n anger n sadness coz i find it hard 2 get close 2 any1 i dnt evan talk about anythin 2 ma parentzz or friendz so if i woz attention seekin i would tell every1 wouldnt i!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so next time u think im doin it 4 attention get ur head outta ur arse n think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am EMO and you know what EMO isnt all about slitting your wrists so anyone who says it is… Is wrong, Emo is short for Emotional ok? and also, Emo USED to be a style but people turned it into wrist cutting and you know what here is a little poem for all you emo haters out there: You look at her as if shes a piece of trash
You laugh at the way she looks
You shout about what lies on her wrists
But you dont care
You can go home at night not caring what you have said
Not even thinkiing you are the reason for those cuts on her wrists
Not think that she would rather die than face another day
You call her “attention seeker” or “Emo”
Without the though of that crying you heard in the bathroom
Those might actually be real tears running diwn her cheeks
If she dies you dont care…………………….
Why should you, you didnt know her
Well if you dont care about her why did you shout at her
Make her feel unwanted
And in a way, You were the one that killed her
You were the one that cut her wrists
Think
okai..i am sick and tired of people judging other people just by the way they look.okay..if you dont know that person..YOU SHOULDNT JUDGE THEM..you have no right to go up to someone and just call them “EMO!” or “SLUT” or any other hurtful names like that if you dont even know what theyre all about..
You can look at someone and go..ooooh…shes totally EMO!! she cuts herself!! NO you can absolutely NOT DO THAT.you should just give people a chance..just because they look a certain way doesnt mean they shouldnt be treated any different.emo people or punks or skaters or metalheads or ANYBODY ..we should all be treated equally… you wouldnt like it if you got teased badly by the way you look..when you know you arent even tht type of person..but they never give you a chance…
and another thing…EMO DOES NOT MEAN SUICIDAL PEOPLE..IT DOES NOT MEAN PEOPLE WHO CUT THEIR WRISTS IT DOES NOT MEAN ANYTHING LIKE THAT.for your information….emo is a genre of music&&a fashion statement.but over the years,it changed..yess..some emo people may cut or be suicidal..but they are just living their life the wrong way..some people laugh..some people taunt…some people try to help..some people just dont give a dam..or some people say..i no you shouldnt do that but its your life and you make the desiscions.
Its funny how some things never change..
Hate,Love,Peace,War…
I hear them knocking at my door.
We are back to laugh at you and your terrible mistakes..
You have scars on your wrists..what have you done? my body quivers and shakes.
I feel as if im all alone..noone will ever know.
Why i am feeling so much pain and why these scars will never show.
The truth is,there are no scars…not even a tiny bit..
For they didn’t give me a chance to explain…your all wrong..go throw a fit.
No I don’t cut my wrists,or want to die alone.
So stop bothering me..im going to hang up the phone.
Im sick of all your torturing..for you were just wrong not right…
Why do you judge me? god,im so mad!!! i wish it was day not night!!
i could run away forever.i will never wish to see you,
I know all this is hard..but what im saying is true..
I was the one who was right..it was never ever you.
So end the hate..right this minute.
Equally is how everybody shall be treated.
Every one is a normal human being..
So here it comes,from behind the clouds..its peace,yes,thats what we’re seeing. =)
Personally i have nothing against Emo ppl cuz alot of them actually have bad problems, hell some of my freinds are emo. I dont know them as well as i should so i dont judge them in what they beleive, sure there is a logical limit to all things but being emo is there choice let them live it they have to work it out for themselves. Persecuting an Emo person for who they are is the same as being racist because you ruthlessly treating a person likee shit for wha they beleive and how they act is wrong(I.E same thing as bein racist). but on the same token emo ppl seriously if you have a problem talk to somebody and sort it out dont drown youreself in self pity , and sure us chavs as you say(whatever the hell a chav. is) are different from you and you see us as strange but remember its a two way street if we get to know you and you get to know us maybe we wouldnt be insulting you and there would be alot less tension between us. “I have a dream bitches!! A dream where all men, emo , chav, or otherwise may rock together at one concert in peace and love.” (the modern Martin Luther king)
i have no idea about emos…
i mena dats y im researching dem for a skool assignment
i even made an emo bebo acount and met some really cool people…
i mean dey are emo but dey are stil alrite
i mean i hav shit in my life to
my life is like hell…literally…i hate it sooooo much..
people hav problems just like me
but it doesnt meann you need to cut yourself…
sometimes i cry myself to sleep
but sometimes crying helps
and its healthier den cuttin yourself…
i have heaps of frends…emo n non emo…but hoo cares
everyone is a person
i kno my boy frend doesnt like emos…but idc…coz i like him n he likes me
if you have more frends you also are happier
tlk ta someone…seriously
i tlked to my frends and dey helped me…ALOT
i cry alot less now aswell…everyone has atleast some shit
so all you emos…get ova it….
im not sayin you lil retards..im just sayin….be normal…n tlk ta people
believe me it helps…alot..i mean it
bye bye
missy. xx
luvz and smilez to emos n non emos..
get a freaking live you emo haters
just let people be who they want to be
go fuck yourself daniel
aaaah…go fuck yo’ self you Emo-haters….
you live you’re own life….let us live our own life too…..
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I am not emo and i will never be emo, i dont agree with emo’s but i don’t hate emo’s. They are just people who wear alot of make up and cut themselves when there sad. I am going to say some good points to emos and bad things, my hope is that once read both sides can shut up and leave each other alone.
Who cares how they dress, so we think they dress silly, who says that what we think is right, it’s how they want to dress so let them be.
You look like clones, you think its being an individual, but look around, chances are most of the people near u are being the exact same individual you are.
Most emo’s are not gay, the same ratio of gay to straight in emo’s and everyone else would be roughly the same. and even if they were all gay, so what, whats wrong with being gay, you homophobic assholes.
You say your expressing your personality, but your not, first of all your reflecting someone elses personality who created the style/look and secondly. you dont express anything, exept your love of eyeliner. all you do is go on and on about how no one understands you but you wont let them. you never talk.
Anyway thats enough for now, if you want me to say more feel free to email me at cutie_pie172@hotmail.com… if i dnt like you or to turn out to be an asshole or something. dont worry i will delete you. for everyone else. go ahead
Being emo is just an excuse for attention. And btw, highschoolers CANNOT pull of skinny jeans, so don’t even try.
you and every other emo-hating prep/jock fagets can piss of and go to hell.
Leave emos alone you fagits!
Jeez,
any one that would take the time to write all that crap has NO FREKIN LIFE!!!
so get a hobby or somthing and leave the cool emos alone?
okay douche bag?
well if emo is just an excuse for boys to act like girls, then being a tomboy is just an excuse for girls to act like boys.
look, i dont go around saying im emo and no im not proud to be how i am but im not going to be a fake to myself. so unlike all you spoiled bitches people like us have real problems. why waste my time bothering with this? because all of you are too judgmental. maybe when something comes and shatters your world you will get a sour taste of what pain is.
you cant just say that ‘when im emo.’ its not a thing u can just put on and off! and emo is not about wanting attention! so if u just dont like emo go kiss your ASS
no offence but im not emo, but i understand what it feels like. and hi im from finland
Many people actually label US, ’emos’ dont label themselves unless they are posers, aka people who pretend to be depressed just for attention, and these are the people which have caused all ’emos’ to be associated with those traites. This gives people who actually have good reason to feel depressed a bad name. In addition, ’emo’ is actually short for Emotional hardcore, emocore or whatever you wish to call it, which is a MUSIC genre which originally began back in the 80’s.
So nobody can actually be ’emo. But over the years it has been turned into a stereotype, the media has heavily influenced this, along with the internet. If anybody actually took the time to talk to real ’emos’, they would see that this stereotype is very wrong. ‘Emos’ arent whiney, attention seeking kids, who believe everything is against them, as I said, only the ‘posers’ act that way.
I just simply wanted to put my point across. And I hope people like the guy/girl who wrote this think twice before they start judging people abbout something which:
A) Isn’t true
and
B) They clearly have no knowledge at ALL about, and just make their judgements on what the media and ’emo-haters’ have said.
I have yet to hear an ’emo-hater’ who has come up with a good enough argument as to why they hate emos. Saying they are ‘gay’ means you a homophobic, saying they like make-up… so what? Wow, they put on make-up…big deal.
Also, I get labelled ’emo’ by other people, because I ‘dress like an emo’ or have ’emo hair’. I dress how i damn well want, and I have my hair how I damn well want, not because its ’emo’ or ‘cool’. I also listen to HEAVY METAL, ROCK, METAL. So why am I being labelled ’emo’ if I listen to metal? Because barely any ’emo-haters’ have ANY knowledge at all about what ’emo’ is.
My rant over, people please do your research into things like this before you judge somebody. And remember… THEY ARE PEOPLE JUST LIKE YOU.
no offence to any one whos emo but i know many posers that are really annoying but i do have my few friends who are truly emo and its more of a state of mind than a need for attention i know what u mean when u say u take the advice and use it but my advice it not to cut your self because whats the point to one day remind yourself that you had bad times when your older dont do it its only gonna prolong ur pain express what u have to express the outside and any way i know u all say you wont change well one day you will realise that life can be better it can be more that 2 colours and that a heart doesnt have to bleed through ur wrists well hate me all you like im human and i mite not act out dress or gather like you im a poser in a different form i pose as a normal person that can smile and can laugh but i also feel pain and depression
Mr Daniel..emm..i love emo and i know y im be so emo. as a human being, we have our own heart..being emo is not what we chose to be. born as a week plp make us feel down. being emo its not about we are loser…..understand us n dun judge us by looking at our personality,,but hear our pain inside our heart..tq
Not really all Emo’s can only cause a bad things. Need for attention doesn’t mean that they will do something stupid. But one true fact about EMO is, they don’t cause trouble to you unless you have made a trouble first. So, think first if you wanna mess around with EMO.
‘Snave Guy Lavoie JR
my god…dude shut the hell up.a lot of Emos are goin thru some serious shit right now.Like myself.just go fuck urself and leave us alone.
Tbh, i didn’t even read the above just a few comments… i literatly ROFL’d IF your emo and this has offended you, then your not “emo” as you shouldn’t care what people think.
Kthxbaiiii
i have been labeled as emo and here is my opinion…
there is 3 kinds of emo
1 fakers who just want attention (posers)or like the style(Scene)
2. real emos who happen to just be different and more expressive (Me)
3. overboard emos who dont see the difference between being expressive and just being insane.
…. just my oppinions … dont get mad …
im willing to bet that about 80% of the people saying “omg emo rules or im so emo and… emo for life ” are posers
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by the wayALL YOU PEOPLE{SHIT HEADS!!!!!!!!} WHO THINK EMOS AND SCENES ARE GAY FUCK OF CUZ IM STRAIGHT!!!!! ALL YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO HATE GAY PEOPLE TWO ! DID THE FAGS HURT YOU YOU AND BY THE WAY EVEN THOUG IM STRAIGHT I DONT HATE GAYS I JUST AVOID THEM CAUSE THERE A LITTLE AWKWARD IF YOU GET WHAT IM SAYINM’ HERE BUT YA ANY WAY GAY HATERS! YOU PROBUBLY HATE GAYS TO COVER UP YOUR OWN SEXUALITY HAHAHAHAH!
I JUST CUT MYSELF GOT A PROB;EM!
thats so mean. im emo and its not fair to judge emos just cuz they are differant. it just isnt fair. at least they cut themselfs not others. and so what if they dress differant. not all emos cut themselfes either. most just draw. like me. so shut up if you dont know what ur talking about or if it will hurt others
hiya
im an emo but i dont dress likie one and we dont do it
FOR ATTENTION MY MUM AND have just split up and i hardliy
see him
SO DONT JUDGE US
at least we dont cut over people ( chavs )
sigh….To punko, london i say i wish u knew how it felt.
hmmmm let me see if i can paint a picture…
I’m an emo of some sort though i never knew it.
I’m almost 18 now…well i will be in july ^^
It started when i was about 14. I’d felt a sense of loneliness but i always was happy… as in not true happiness but this spring that always seemed to keep me together making me a joy to ppl….
Then i found what i was missing and though i won’t go into that, everything changed…i felt the loneliness worse witht the weight on me, thinking about how cruel my father was to my mother and how she’d find ways to blame me i knew i couldn’t tlk to them. I’d left my best friend behind to go to a new school and every1 just wasn’t sincere enough…didn’t love as i did, didn’t care…so pretentious and plastic u’d think it’d crack at any moment….
I cried every night, many times i couldn’t sleep, couldn’t eat…i just started wasting away. I never knew anything about emo back then. But sometimes i’d get so angry i knew i just wanted to hurt something. I couldn’t hurt those who caused it so i’d just beat up on myself perhaps with a belt or something and it’d help take away the anger. Then one time i was in so much pain i cut myself…and it felt so good i couldn’t believe it, it helped. but i did know i shouldn’t. No one ever saw my scars tho i kept them hidden or at times wen i didn’t remember no1 even saw. Then after a few months i’d see they’d start to fade…. During that time tho i’d fight hard not to cut myself again despite how i was feeling but by the time the others had faded something wwould happen and my only escape was to cut myself…. i remember walking and ppl whispering of how i was wasting away…and i thought to myself as i looked in a mirror, cn’t let them kno or they’ll send me to a shrink i tried eating again but food was just like cardboard….In time tho with a friends help who’d known how much i could eat before the change and had spent time urging me to eat i regained my love for food, tho i started worrying about gaining weight as my father had called me fat when i was 13 even tho i was only 98lbs at the time. By now i’d gotten what i wanted what i thought i was missing but the pain still lived on inside me…. I use to cry alot…in fact i’ve been that way since i was small, i’m easily upset and very emotional. If any1 even yells at me i’ll probably break down in tears(i can’t help it). I remember once wen i was about ten, my dad was talking to me but i started crying cause he’s kinda rough…btw i don’t make noise when i cry u just see the tears…cuz from when u’re small and u’re gatting flogged it’ll only be worse when u make noise… anyway he got upset and started yelling at me to stop crying naturally it didn’t help and couldn’t stop the tears and he just got up and started beating me. Even now he yells at me for crying…but again almost eighteen i can’t help it. The ting is tho he’s the only one who does it, even the most mean person at my school doesn’t pick on me i’m apparently lovable and cute and nice so no1 ill treats me (thank God).
Today i’m a bit happier, i dn’t cry as much as i used to cause i try really hard, though it’s meant i’ve had t harden my heart against ppl(and that hurts me too). I remember every saturday at church i’d just break down crying…silent tears of pain running hot down my cheeks…my friend would always give me a shoulder and find somewhere quiet for me until i could stop. I loved my friend…
People like me aren’t posers, and step by step i’m coping…it’d been almost a year since i’d cut myself but the other day my dad and his girl kinda ganged up on me…and what i felt was beyond words…interestingly enough tho i’ve almost kicked the habit cause when i cut myself that time it didn’t give me as much relief as it used to. I don’t think i’ll cut myself anymore tho…i’ve found out that i can write poems and draw and cuddle up with my slightly emo boyfriend(we’re changing each other^^ and his love is really helping me to accept myself and be happier)
I’m emo and proud but also i’m changing i don’t show off or tlk to my friends about it…to tell the truth they see the msk of my real old self…ever happy
I really hope u ppl can stop hating emo ppl…we just have problems most times and cutting urself does release hormones that make u feel better. Now not all emos cut, some can listen to music or draw and write poems…or just find some1 for company. I like who i am…i don’t dress emo th, but i do like the clothes i try to act as normal as possible and keep it all inside mostly sharing with my other half…. SOrry my comment was so long just want ppl to kno there are some like me ^^